Decided to go through my Christmas music on my computer and HOLY CRAP! I have 2 and a half gigs of it! That's a lot, for those who don't keep music. 13 versions of Away in a Manger, 11 God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen, 14 Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas, I mean jeeze! I'm only on the 10th Away in a Manger and it goes all the way to You're All I Want for Christmas. I could be at this till Christmas actually gets here.
TV is making it really hard on me this year. One of the razor companies keeps harping on Dads and what you should get them since you've only got the one. Since my little brothers have refused to come home for Christmas, my sis-in-law isn't coming, plus to remember the one person who will never be there again, it's making it really hard. All of the songs I used to listen to while Daddy was alive are still there, but he's not. The holidays bring pain and memories, and I hope that the love between the ones who are still here can overshadow that, even if only by a bit. Not showing suffering is a difficult thing to do but I think we all are in our own ways. The choice is to stand up and put on a brave front so I can try to be someone others can lean against, even though they won't know I'm leaning on them as well.
For people who have lost someone dear to them, and to people who haven't, but one day will - Merry Christmas. Let the love that remains light the way through the dark.